finding yourself

There’s a lot of trouble nowadays among the young ones when it comes to finding the right career. I for one can say that I was a little lost, and sometimes still feel like I am, because I’m not attending to a boss, an office, or don’t have legitimate “work” five times a week. I have no moody higher ups or clients to rant about or phone calls I’d like to avoid during the weekends. It’s a blessing, really, to not have these hassles in my life anymore. But why do I feel like I’m the uneasy one? The abnormal one? The unstable one because I’m no longer hassled?

It’s a little confusing sometimes, trying to start your own thing and building your own “dream job” — the dream job of being able to put all the things you love doing in your life together, and making something of it. There’s a whole lot of support coming from friends and family, but there’s a lot of doubt, uncertainty and fear from the self. Sometimes, you even get this feeling from others, those that seem to be stable, those that know how to manoeuvre their life and actually already know their destination. I understand that feeling though, thinking about someone who’s unemployed without any sure plan. As part of the work force you feel like you’re safe and that you’re doing something with your life, whether or not you love it. As long as you have work and “direction,” you’re better than the unemployed one.

I used to think, This is reality. You have to work and deal with shit, and you need to work now and start now to survive. Plan your life already or you’ll screw yourself over. There’s no time to waste. Decide on a career and get on with it.

I needed to be safe, to just be employed. But once I got out and jumped to the other side of the spectrum, weirdly enough, the feeling became a little heavier and lighter at the same time.

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why january, mondays and mornings are the best

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We often despise the return of regular programming once the holiday celebrations are over. We experience the Monday blues weekly, dreading the early call times and having to make our way to work. Who wouldn’t, after a good weekend or holiday break of free time, binge eating and drinking, activities and get-togethers? It’s tough, but sometimes we fail to recognize the beauty of a new year, a new week and a new day, and an opportunity to start over and continue the beautiful struggle of trying to be a better you.

I know there’s a lot of crap that goes around “new year, new me,” but even though January 1 doesn’t have to come before we make a change, there’s a certain feeling of renewal and a chance to be better every time the new year comes. Whether or not we choose to admit that a part of us feels the urge to do something new or take on a new resolution, it still sheds some light on the possibility of change that others embrace and use as an opportunity to improve on oneself; same goes with having to wake up early the next day or start a new work week. It’s not so often you encounter someone so enthusiastic about waking up at 4:30-5:00 in the morning or waking up to Monday. It may take extra effort, but it is during these times that we should get excited to work on something new, meet someone we’ve never met before, post about thoughts we never chose to say out loud, dare to wear an outfit which is so unlike yourself but is actually truly you, start giving a damn about your health and hitting the gym despite the crazy eyes the gym rats might give to the newbie, or make that first step towards the business you say is your goal in the next five or ten years. I find that window of opportunity for a chance to do something new so important, and instead of dreading it, we should all try to look at it in a different light and learn to embrace it instead. It is during these moments that we set ourselves up for what’s to come and the disposition we choose to have at the start of the year, a week or a day, to help us get through life.

So while we are still slightly hungover from that last holiday break, approaching the weekend and ending the work week, give the possibility of opportunity of the new year, new week and new day some thought, and you might be able to go through life a little lighter, more inspired and determined to work on a better you.